~I gAtHeR sPeEd FrOm YoU fCkInG wItH mE*~

goodbye to this journal....

Tue, 05 Aug 2003 05:29:16 GMT

starting new one tomorrow..and i'm not doing the vote..cause only toni and michelle gave suggestions...thanks guys!!! time to move on and start new!!

please join in!!!!

Mon, 04 Aug 2003 05:29:19 GMT

so thanks to toni:D...I got a code to start a new lj..so now I want everyone on my list(if you like)to give a suggestion of what my new name should be..and I don't want it to have anything to do with bon jovi, goo goo dolls, johnny depp etc..I like fortheloveofmusic..so whoever has better suggestions..please reply..then i'll have a vote and whatever gets the most votes will be my name..if i like it;)

change is inevitable...

Sun, 03 Aug 2003 21:27:54 GMT

well..there's lots to say..but first i'll start about the Stones & Friends concert!!

So I was worried about this concert...but IT WAS AMAZING!!!!...wow...I've never seen so many people in one place at the same time...there was 450, 000 people there!!!! Talk about insane!!! And nothing bad happened!!! Can you believe it!?..everyone was so well behaved!!! Just being there I could tell everyone was just there for a good time and the music and not to cause any truoble!!!..I saw a few little incidents that could've turned ugly..but they didn't..thank gosh!! Just basically people losing their patience and acting like the world revolves around them when there is 450, 000 other people there!!!..first off I should say it took us 3 hrs to get there which was at 12:30..and we were pretty close to the big screen for sam roberts!! Now the highlights for me were...SAM ROBERTS!!!...lol...he opened the show and was awesome!!! My brothers switched back and forth from song to song with putting me on their shoulders!!..he only did 3 songs:(..which were all his singles..and he wanted to do a 4th song.."we got time for one more song"...goes talk to bandmates.."o shit..no we don't sorry:("..he was so happy to be there!!..so then we sit and wait for the tea party which was around 3 I think..and they kicked ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They were really good with getting the crowd to participate!!! they had about 20 minutes to play and they made the best of it!! So then we leave our spot and it was hell trying to get out to food...pure caious..but we made it out about 30 minutes later!! We couldn't find the big BBQ place so we just got hotdogs..we found this water misting place..and this guy from the USA was bringing these girls up on his truck and giving them money if they flash the crowd:|..most of the girls did it:|..lol..but i couldn't see it cause i'm short..and i just wanted to feel the cold water on me!! But my brothers were loving it..what amuses men:| So then we make our way back to find a spot for the evening show when we realize that the crowd grew a lot bigger since we left there. So we find this spot in the 302 section that were basically forced to stay in because these stupid trucks kept on coming to try to get through..but it was kinda hard since the road was full of people. Well there was about a total of 7 of them..and it took forever for them to go and made marco and I really hot and kinda like I was going to faint. While Elisa and Adriano found a spot to stand inside the crowd..so they didn't feel what we felt at all. So the evening show starts off with Justin Timberlake..poor guy..he got water bottles thrown at him..i felt extremely sorry for him even though I hate him..he was just trying to lend a helping hand and the crowd had to do that to him:|..but he handled it like a true perfessional..he just kept on singing on..it could've gotten ugly if he had walked offstage but that means the crowd would've won..and i'm glad he didn't give them that satisfaction!! he should be proud of himself how he handled the whole situation..but he knew something was gonna happen by stating "this won't be long..I think we all here for one reason and thats to see the fucking rolling stones"..and backstage he said that if he could see ac/dc he wouldn't want to see him either!..so then The Guess Who come on and the show finally really begins!!! You couldn't move one bit during them..and they were amazing!!! I knew all the songs they did and they sound awesome live!!! The crowd was loving them!!! So then Rush came on..i'm not a big fan of them..and plus I was starting to feel like i was going to collapse during their act. So then we finally get to sit down a bit and AC/DC come on next!!! Now they know how to put a concert on!!! they were freaking awesome!!! They did a lot of their hits and I knew some of them!! So after AC/DC the stones come on late..about 40 mins. late..and i'm thinking..why the hell are they making half a million people waiting..do they want the crowd to start riots..that was just plan stupid of them..so they come out and suddenly where we are the crowd goes dead:|..it was like the concert was over..no one was into the stones at all which is funny since the show was for them..so we left half way through them cause everyone else was leaving and it was just getting annoying being there. We got home at 2:30..so it was a very long day..most of it standing..but it was an amazing experience to see all those people!!! just incredible!!! And how proud am I of the crowd not to start anything bad!!

So next topic..my grandmother is coming down saturday which means no more time on the computer since its here in her room. That means what I stated to plan a few days ago must happen all this week so when school starts it'll all be done..since she'll be leaving a week after school begins.

So what I started to plan was...I decided to leave all the bon jovi message boards when school begins..now that has changed to this week instead..and I mean leave..I'm not going back ever..so I'll write my good-bye post tomorrow at bonjovi.com and in the cdn joviholics at backstage..

next thing..I want to start a new livejournal..like a new account..different name and stuff..but I need a code to do that which I don't have..and I know i'll lose all my other entries..but i'll print the ones(like concert ones) out. Its just I want to start anew..and I think this is the best way to do it..so I have to get a code somehow..so thats it for now..

~*I changed by not changing at all, small town predicts my fate Perhaps that's what no one wants to see*~

but i don't drink.....

Fri, 01 Aug 2003 04:48:44 GMT

You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.

Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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rolling stones and friends concert tomorrow:D

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 02:46:16 GMT

a lot of mixed feelings with this concert..tell ya the truth I'm sick and tired of hearing about it...I'm afraid its gonna be pure caious..and its gonna be so hard to get to downsview and is gonna take like 5 hours to get home..and I think riots might break out..but hopefully everything WILL go ok!!! my brother wants to leave before the stones are done and my sister wants to stay for the whole thing..i'll count tomorrow to see how many fights we all get in!! should be interesting...everyoen have a great day tomorrow..bye bye!!

anyone wanna help??..lol...

Tue, 29 Jul 2003 18:43:10 GMT

I'm guessing Toni will know how to do this since she is the master at making icons!!...I was looking at paint today trying to figure out how to actually make an icon..but I couldn't find anywhere where it actually explains the process...so if anyone could help me I'd really really really appreciate it!!!

man...I LOVED THIS MOVIE!!!

Sat, 26 Jul 2003 19:26:53 GMT

You are...

Elizabeth's pirate fetish. You're a secret, closet
fetish that no one knows about. Except maybe
Jack. Something about rum swigging, ne'er do
well cads gets your goat. It's okay, I'm sure
lots of people feel the EXACT same way. Really.

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THEY JUST GET BETTER WITH AGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEST CONCERT EVER!!!!

Sat, 19 Jul 2003 03:15:42 GMT

….first off I’ll apologize for not using an lj cut…but I don’t like to use it on special occasions like this!!! So I’ll start by saying that I LOVED this show!!!!!!!!!! It was much better than the ACC one….the set list was just incredible and even though they played shorter than the ACC show it was still amazing!!!!

So we leave the house around 5:20 to catch the 5:41 GO Train which we actually made in time and we didn’t even have to run for it for the first time ever!!!! We weren’t going to miss the goo goo dolls perform so we made sure we made it!!!!!! It was actually funny walking into the station because there were quite a few of people there and they were just staring at me because I had my beige cowboy hat on and a superman shirt that was tied up at the side. People probably thought I was crazy by some of the looks I got!!!! So the ride up wasn’t that bad because we had magazines to read!!!!! I usually hate the Go Train rides because it goes so slow…but these ones were actually good. I’ll tell ya about the ride back later!!! It was really interesting!!!!

So we get to the amphitheatre a little early which is good!!!!!! And were giving our tickets to the security girl to check and she’s like “does bon jovi have a song named superman?”…and these other girls have blank faces on…so I yell “NOOOOOO”….she replies “then why are there so many superman shirts??”…and I say “cause Jon has a superman tattoo!!!!”….and she just like “oooooooooo…he has a tattoo”..and when we were walking away I yell “Get with the program lady!!!”…I had too! :| So we go to the washroom, get drinks and find our seats!!!!! So were sitting beside these 2 old people…just our luck…we never get people our age. So then I started to yell for no apparent reason..lol..and the old lady beside me was like “oooo, I can party with you guys, we can yell too”….my sister was just like about me “she’s PRETTY bad!!!” and then the lady started naming all the bands she has seen…she saw QUEEN!!!!! And I was in awe when she said that!!!!

Finally….the GOO GOO DOLLS HIT THE STAGE!!!!!!! I was standing up even before they were on!!!! And Johnny Rzeznik looked amazing as usual and seemed to be in a very funny mood!!!!!!! In the 2nd song which was slide, a girl on the floor was on her cell phone…Johnny started saying he wants to talk to the person on the phone.…then he stops and tells the band to stop playing so they do!!!!! And he’s like “Give me the phone; I really want to talk to the person!!!” So then the security guard brings him the phone…he starts talking “Hello, who is this!?...why aren’t you here?”..then he says “cause your too cheap to buy a ticket????”…the crowd starts to boo!!!!!! And then he’s like “People these days are too lazy now to even try to sneak into concerts!!!”…something along those lines…and he put the phone up to the microphone so the crowd could hear what was going on…and we could hear these funny noises…Johnny was just like “what’s going on over there??”..and started making some sex comments!! Then after a couple of songs Robby started talking about Johnny’s shirt which was a tank top of “I Love T.O.”….and Johnny yelled “WHAT?? I BOUGHT THIS TODAY….I’M A FUCKING TOURIST MAN!!!!! The crowd started yelling for that!! Then he got one of those Cat and the hat hats which had a Canadian Maple Leaf on it...and stated that he’s American an apologizes for that!!! So the goo’s rocked..playing all their classic tones and new ones too!!!!! I actually wanna see them again even though that was my 3rd time…the goo’s never get the response from the crowd they deserve and its mostly because they’re opening for bon jovi so most of the people are there to see jovi and not goo’s…which sucks for them. But I thought they ROCKED!!

Intermission now…and we’re trying to figure out how we can get closer for jovi since once everyone stands up in our section I wasn’t going to be able to see over the heads. That’s the problem with the 200 section…they didn’t make it rise up enough. So we were just standing against the wall trying to figure out which section we should move up in when someone comes up to me and is like “Is your name Laura?”….and I have this confused look on my face and go “yes….”….and she’s like “HEY!!”…I look down and see this Canadian key chain and yell “STEPH!!!!!”…she’s just like “yup it’s me!!!”…Steph is someone I met through the message boards and I’m so happy that she found me…because we have so much in common!!! She thought it was me cause of my beige cowboy hat and superman shirt and she just took a chance in asking!!!! She showed me her wristband to go on stage with the boys!!! :) And she took pics on stage which I hope I’ll get to see before she leaves for Portugal!! And she also touched Richie!!!!!!!!! So after awhile we said bye..and decided we try to sneak up in our section…there were 2 seats which no one had sat in near the front of the aisle so we went there!! But the people came and we just stood outside our row thinking to ourselves for jovi to get on stage soon so we can move up to the front of the aisle!!! I know were bad…but we had to be close for jovi!!! So finally a video starts on the screen and music starts to play and we run up to the front of the aisle and we stayed there ALL NIGHT LONG!!!! :)

THE MOMENT I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR FINALLY HAPPENS!!!!!..Richie steps onto the stage and the crowd goes insane!!!!!!! And I’m in total shock of how close we were..he looked clear and actually real!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So he starts the intro to bounce and I’m jumping up and down already and FINALLY JON BON JOVI ENTERS THE STAGE!!!! THE CROWD GOES FUCKING WILD!!!!!!!!!!!! And I almost wanted to cry because they were all right there in front of me!!!!!! I had the perfect view of Richie and Jon!!! So everyone is throwing their hands in the air exactly like were suppose to!!!! They go into Bad Name after that which was good…the usual stuff for that song!!! Then Jon says hello Toronto and the crowd starts yelling none stop and Jon has this surprised and PLEASED look on his face and just says “Well were not going to waste anytime..”…then they played everyday which I like live, I think it’s because the crowd was really into it, everyone shouting “EVERYDAY!!!”…they then went into some good ‘ol classics!! Jon comes out with a guitar and they start to play “I’d Die for You” which I’ve never heard live before!!!!! Right after that Jon starts to sing “We…got….to…hooooooooold…on….” and I was the only one going crazy when he started singing “we” cause I knew immediately that it was Livin’ On a Prayer and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE the way they start that song off now!!! Well the crowd catches on fast and starts to over power Jon!!! He just stops singing and keeps on banging his foot against the stage for the beat and lets the crowd do the singing!!!!! So the crowd basically over powered Jon for that whole song!!!!! And I looked back and saw how jam packed the venue was!!!!! It was an amazing sight!!!!!!!!!! After that they went into Cpt. Crash which was cool cause near the end everyone was swinging their hands back and forth following Jon’s guitar!!!!!!!! Then the bass starts and I start to go crazy because it’s the intro to KEEP THE FAITH!!!!!! I love this song live…I think it’s because of the way that Jon goes crazy with the maracas…swinging his body back and forth!!!!! I just LOVE it!!!!! But they didn’t do the jungle noises this time which I was a little disappointed about since I love the jungle noises!!!!! Then the famous duo…stand together on stage and start the intro for which I am wearing my cowboy hat for!!!!!! I immediately get my lighter out!!!!!!!!! And I start to sing when I noticed that Jon was singing the verse and didn’t let the crowd sing it..even though we over powered him which I thought was odd. These drunken guys came down in the aisle and totally pushed their way up to where I was standing and there was no room for them and they pissed everyone off. Luckily they left after Wanted was done!!!! Now to the most special moment in the night!!!! So Bed of Roses starts!!!!!!! And it comes to Richie’s guitar solo where Jon usually dances with a girl..well this time he just kinda stood around on stage which I thought was soooooo weird. Then he went to the front row and grabbed a sign that said “Bon Jovi Rocks Always!!”…I thought it was weird he took the sign since I’ve never seen him do that before!! He then starts to sit down at the front of the stage on the ledge and says “It amazes us how our songs can still touch so many different people in so many ways!!!!”..then he flips the sign over which read in writing that looked like it just had been written “MARCIA WILL YOU MARRY ME???”…after about 5 seconds the crowd all gasp and start to cheer…then on the big screen you see this couple in the front row kissing and showing the ring and the girl was balling her eyes out which made tons of people around me start to cry..I didn’t cry cause I can never cry in front of people over that kind of stuff..I hold It in..even for movies I don’t cry..but I did have my hand against my mouth and kept on saying “OMG OMG OMG”…I thought that was soooo romantic!!! So Jon then says “SO DID SHE SAY YES!?”..and they’re yelling back at him yes…and then after bed of roses finishes he says “Did you know???”..she says “NOOOOO”…Jon then says “You didn’t have any clue??”..she kept on saying no while she’s crying!!! Jon then jokes around by saying “You didn’t just meet him in the parking lot, did you?”...which then the whole crowd starts laughing and cheering!!!!!! He then goes over and touches the fiancés hand..which took awhile for Jon to meet since he was on stage, but he kept on trying which I thought was so cute of him!! And then says “Well good luck, baby”..to the girl, which made my heart melt when he said “baby”…just the way he said..he sounded real sincere!!! Then he jokingly asks “DOES ANYONE ELSE WANNA GET MARRIED TONIGHT!?!” the whole crowd starts to yell…he then says “I can only do 1 a night, these security people are gonna get mad soon and take me off the stage!” So after that they did It’s my Life (another crowd sing along), Misunderstood (I actually enjoyed this song!!!), Saturday Night (all the “HEY MAN I’M ALIVE” sounded great when the whole crowd was singing it!!) Just Older (when Jon sang “when I look in the mirror..” I just closed my eyes because I love that part of the song!!!) Then Jon leaves the stage to let Richie Sambora take center stage and sing I’ll Be There for You!!!!!!!! I’ve grown to Richie’s version of that song!!!!!!! That man has so much soul it’s amazing!!!! Although I still like Jon singing that song the best, Richie does do it justice!! After that Jon plays the guitar again in Runaway!!!!!!!!!!!! I love that song…pure classic!! Then I start to flip out when the intro to IN THESE ARMS began!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I absolutely love that song!!!!! And it sounds amazing live!!!!!!!!! I loved it when the chorus came because I totally went insane!!! Then Jon is standing center stage and starts clapping his hands together in the air and I yell out “LAY YOUR HANDS ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” OMG!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THAT SONG AND ITS EVEN BETTER LIVE!!!!..I was really mad they didn’t do it at the ACC show but they made up for that!!!!!!!! Just seeing everyone in the crowd clapping their hands together and singing “lay your hands on me, lay your hands on me…” such a great moment for me!!!!!!! I wanted to cry really!!!!! And then right after they went into Born to Be My Baby which was perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!! But during this song this teenager in the row we were in back of was sitting down and almost passed out and then she threw up. This was not pleasant at all. She was kinda drunk all night considering she stood up on her chair and fell back on me…luckily my sister and I stopped her from falling..and she was quite grateful for that!!!! So security came and took her and her friend out during the song. I felt soooooooooooooo bad for her friend because she was having the best time of her life…she was like me…going crazy and she’d turn around and we’d just start yelling!!!!!!!!! And so she missed the rest of the concert because her friend drank too much…then the intro to I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead starts and I start to dance because that song always makes me dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love that song Live!!!! Jon then ditches the guitar and Raise Your Hands begins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS SONG IS AMAZING LIVE!!!!!!! Seeing all the people in the crowd throwing up there hands and yelling “RAISE YOUR HANDS!!!”….just amazing!!!!!...so the boys say good night…Jon thanked all the fans for being around for 20 years and how much he really appreciates it!!!!!!! And also about being here with the best rock n’ roll band!!!!!!!!!! Someone had a sign that read “your in johnny’s church of rock n’ roll!!”..and he actually started saying that!!! So they come back for the encores which apparently were broadcasted but we had no clue since Jon never said anything. And there stands once again Jon and Richie center stage playing the intro to Balze of Glory!!!!!!!!!!! This song is incredible live!!!!!! The power of it just gets the whole crowd yelling “SHOT DOWN IN A BLAZE OF GLORY!”…and it really is a crowd pleaser!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then Bad Medicine begins and I start to feel sad cause I know the end is coming soon…I like this song..but only because they go into SHOUT right after!!!!!!!!!! It was the best version I’ve heard of it!!! The way Jon would control the crowd!!!! He just signal to Tico to stop playing and they’d all stop so he could introduce a member of the band…then they start playing again and the crowd would be going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!! They did it 4 times..for each member!!!! So then they all hug and walk to the center to bow..and say goodbye….and they all walked off our side of the stage..and Jon just stopped and looked at our section and really looked like he didn’t want to leave..everyone was yelling and jumping up and down…he then looked at the floor and looked up again with this sad face on…it really looked like he was saying good-bye..I got this weird feeling in my stomach cause something was going on with him and I couldn’t quite pin point what…he just faced the crowd and waved and walked off the stage with a tired sigh. Then the lights came on and the bounce video came on which signified it was over..I wished they didn’t put the video on right away cause we were all ready to yell until they came back…o well…so how can I not get into how FUCKING GOOD JON LOOKS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...all this time I didn’t say one thing about that….his hair is the perfect colour now..and his body has never been in more finer shape!!!!!! And we had the perfect view of his fine ass….lol…WHICH HE WAS SHAKING ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!!!!..he danced so much I loved it!!!!!! Some side notes…when Jon went over to our side of the fans on stage an old women would not let go of him..security had to get her off of him!! And when Richie was touching all the people on stage a bunch of girls took his hat off!!!!!! I started cracking up at that because Richie’s face was hilarious..he looked surprise and was smiling at the same time!!! He then stood in front of them still facing the crowd which they then placed it back on his head!!!! So basically IT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I met Scully from bswjbj at a pop/water machine..she didn’t really know me since I don’t post there much…it was pure luck we just got to talking cause of our shirts…we complemented each other on each others shirt at the same time!! So the GO Train ride home was the best one I’ve ever had!!!!!! There was about 5 guys around my age sitting near us who were totally drunk..only one was sober…and we had a guy and a girl and 2 kids in the table beside us who were really nice…so the guys were too funny!!!!!!!!! They started singing songs..first guns n’ roses..but then they started ALWAYS!!!! And everyone started singing along!!!!!!! We were so loud…I bet everyone could hear us!!! And we sang a bunch of jovi songs which was awesome!!! I then realized that these guys were hardcore fans cause they knew the THESE DAYS album which only hardcore fans know!!!!! And they knew how they never play songs from that album live..I was really impressed!!!! But those guys were so entertaining..everyone was so loud people actually got up and left!!!!...The last song we sang was Bohemian Rhapsody which I immediately thought of Megan since it was our science class song!!! And everybody who went to this concert is going to the Stones one too!!!!!!! They were all like “We’ll see all you guys there!!!!” when they were getting off of their stop…so we got home and told our brothers how they would’ve loved this concert and they were mad they missed out..and I told my mom it was amazing and how it was worth every penny!! She said again how its my last..and my brother told her to stop saying that…and how she was ruining this..and I agreed with him!!!! I didn’t fall asleep til 6 am…I saw the sun come up!!!!! So this concert was not a disappointment at all…they only missed 3 songs I would’ve liked to hear…but that doesn’t matter!!! And they were so close..I couldn’t believe it!!!! In three simple words….IT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!

“We’re all a part of it and that’s why I like to go down and touch the kids in the front row,just getting together with them....I want everybody to have a good time at our shows, i want the kid in the 89th row to say ‘ I swear to god the singer is looking right in my eyes.’ "*JBJ*...

and sometimes it did feel like he could see us....I know...I'm just imagining that...but it felt like it!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DIDN'T THINK THEY COULD GET BETTER, BUT THEY PROVED ME WRONG!!!!!!

Fri, 18 Jul 2003 08:01:30 GMT

ok...its 3:48 right now...and I wanted to go to the boards..but can't get on..so this isn't gonna be the actual review...tomorrow i'm gonna go into GREAT detail about tonight since so much stuff happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=)...no..i didn't meet the band or get on stage...lol...BUT IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING...way better than the ACC show even though the boys played longer there...but that doesn't matter...some real special moments happened tonight...i'm not telling now....cause i wanna make sure i get everything down right..but u'll probably find out before I make my review anyways...I can tell i'm gonna get sick again..my chest has already started to hurt..lol...but I'm sad that its over...when I was walking out with my sis I yelled..."OMG I FUCKING LOVE BON JOVI!!!!"....she just started laughing..now i'm gonna be even more obsessed..o well...what can ya do...but this is too long now..lol...i'll do a real review tomorrow!!! and I'll make ya fee like u were fucking there with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!;);)

ITS TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

Thu, 17 Jul 2003 15:49:38 GMT

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't sleep at all last night...but i'm feeling fine now...man...I'm so excited...hopefully the rain holds off....it wouldn't be good if it rained...goo's and jovi here I come!!!!!!!!!

all today I felt sick...but this just turned it all around!!!

Thu, 17 Jul 2003 04:03:12 GMT

hehe....the encores for our show tomorrow are gonna be shown on the net!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so all the people who are XS members get to be there with us!!!!!!...so look for me...I'll be wearing a beige cowboy hat and a blue superman shirt that my sis just bought for me today!!! I'm really excited now...this just woke me up!!!!!!! But I'm afraid now that they might not come back for more encores like last time since its being broad-casted to everyone..the last time they played at the amphitheatre...they almost played for 3 hrs...so I hope its like that still!!!!!!

So I was gonna make a shirt for the show...but decided not too since my dad was being a huge asshole yesterday and is mad for the stupidest reasons....gosh...he's more of a baby than me...so I wasn't in the mood to do it anymore..and I still don't get how to install the font...and still am trying to get rid of this hotbar thing since its pissing everyone and me off...lol...and plus today I felt sick when I woke up..so I didn't feel like going to get the fabric stuff...so my sister called from work and decided I should get a superman shirt..cause of jon's tattoo;)...and it looks great!!! although I'm not really matching....lol..but o well!!! Its suppose to rain tomorrow....gosh I hope it doesn't cause that wouldn't be good for the 400 and lawn people..I want tomorrow night to be as great as possible it can be!!!!!

Like I said earlier...felt sick all day today..i felt like I was going to throw up at anytime....I hope i'm not like this tomorrow...or I'll be flipping out...lol...but I guess I should go now..nighty night!!!

*~Forget the real world! C'mon to a Bon Jovi show! It's putting your hands up in the air and singing and having a blast.*~ -David Bryan-

*~It's been a long tour.. I'm tired, real tired, and if you ask me now all I want to do is go home, watch some TV, sleep. But this is what I always wanted, wasn't it? And we worked our asses off for it.*~-JBJ-

*~We’ve always been a bar band, we just play really big bars!*~JBJ

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 14 Jul 2003 19:51:18 GMT

This girl, Steph who i chat w/ online won on stage passes and floor seats to the jovi concert on thursday!!!! I'm sooooooooooooo happy for her!!!!!! Steph and I have so much in common its kinda freaky..I sometimes wonder if she's real cause of it...lol...but she made a post at backstage about it...and she won through mmm...I didn't try for that contest cause i found out to late..i thought the post cards wouldn't make it there in time..o well...but she was in the 400 section before....so now she's gonna be so close....which is awesome..cause she thought she wasn't going to be able to see...and she's such an hardcore fan..this rocks!!!! were suppose to meet up before the show with dominique too...but i might not be able to make it..hopefully i will.....I just had to share..

now at bonjovi.com...I started this plan to make bon jovi realize how much toronto and canada love them...so this is what were doing...after about 15 minutes the goo's have left the stage...the floor people are going to start chanting/singing "WE WILL ROCK U"....then right after that they are gonna go into livin on a prayer....then after that...Wanted dead or alive..and after that always...people on the floor are going to make signs saying sing along to blah blah...and hold them up to the crowd...hopefully the crowd will catch on..so after an encore...we're also going to start chanting "jo-vi, jo-vi"...this is for the people on my list who are going to the show...please join in!!!

this one will be better.......

Mon, 14 Jul 2003 06:27:21 GMT

than the last entry I wrote..that one was real quick since I didn't even have time to proof read it and spell check it...my sister called me to leave before I could. So we went on a drive...we call them road trips..basically we get into my sisters car and just drive...go out to the country and listen to music and sing along!!!!! It was real nice where we went this time...the houses were pretty big and beatiful...and they were so far apart from eachother...so much room and space!!!! I told my sis that I'd like to live in one of those houses one day..she just laughed like "yeah...right..like thats happening.."...but I don't think I'll like it in the big city...to much motion there...hmmm...I'm very weird...because I think that most people's goals are to make it to big cities...and I hate it here...and this is bigger than the places we were today..so I think i figured out why i hate it here...its not the city...its the people...well....maybe not the people...but i feel as if I don't belong here...actually I feel as i if don't belong anywhere and thats because I don't even know who i am yet...and I have no clue on how to find who i am...man..this post got really serious..and I didn't even mean it to be...like I'm suddenly feeling emotional..stupid mood swings...maybe cause I'm gonna see bon jovi soon..and it feels like I'm saying good-bye....maybe cause during the concert on the net my mom said..."you better enjoy the jovi concert on thursday cause its going to be your last"....I was going to cry...she likes to take the one thing that makes me happy away..she can't help it...but its getting late...night night!!!

~*You’re really on your knees, when you think you’re standing tall~*-BJ-

hehe...it finally worked...

Sun, 13 Jul 2003 19:58:04 GMT

I've been trying to get a video icon...and now I finally found one small enough!!!!! I think it looks good...lol...and its one of mu fav. parts of ktf!!!...so I'm gonna go on a road trip..well..curse with my sister cause it'll be our last sinc eshe's gettign a new car...hopefully her car won't break down like last time...

last night watched 2 johnny depp movies!!!!!!!!!!! Ok..so he's my favourite actor now...he's truely amazing..btw...i saw pirates teh day it came out..and it was awesome..I LOVED it..I wanna see it again!!! he was amazing in it!!!k..gotta go..bye bye!!

omg......what a band...what band gives the fans a free concert??..the best band in the world!!

Sat, 12 Jul 2003 05:28:00 GMT

I can't believe what just happened...I got to watch half of the bon jovi show tonight on the net because the american xs ppl obviously got confused...lol..but it was amazing!!!!!! the stage is HUGE!!!!!!!...omg...jon looked amazing too..and looked like he was in such a great mood....he was dancing so much..and kissed 3 girls!! what a flirt...lol..he was sweating soooo much..it looked like he just got out of the shower...my mom couldn't believe how much he was sweating...lol...but my brother started to laugh at me cause I was throwing my hands in the air and doing exactly what u usually do when ur at the concert..he was like "YOUR ACTUALLY THERE!"...and started cracking up..cause I was also singing along and stuff!!...but now I'm totally hyper for the concert on thursady!!!!...one thing though...richie sounded sick...like he always sounds amazing..but not tonight...it sounded like he has a soar throat...and on his b-day..I feel bad for him......eeeeekkkkk...I can't believe how much I love this band...like it was starting to fade cause I started getting obsessed w/ pearl jam..but its back now!!!...but one thing I was disappointed about was that the set list is almost the same....I was hoping they switch it up a lot...but i guess that won't happen..geez...they even showed goo goo dolls..man...I think they didn't tell ppl cause they didn't want the web site to collapse like with the chat...maybe thats why...hmmmm..I'm gonna check tomorrow....well...nighty night everyone!!!

you know what I hate......

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 02:15:54 GMT

when they release more tickets for concerts..and their almost as good as the ones you have...but people who aren't even hardcore fans get better than those who are..I fucking hate that.....drives me insane...

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 20:55:19 GMT

Yesterday I handed in my resume to pizza hut...hopefully they'll call me!!! My brother told me to hand them out to clothing stores cause he doesn't want me to work at fast food stores cause he says I might not be able to handle it..lol...what a jackass..he had to work at McDonalds..and he doesn't want me working there cause he hated it..so i guess he's just trying to convince my parents that its not a good place to work...

Last night we watched the freddie Mercury tribute Concert for Aids that they did after he dies in 1991....my sister bought yesterday at Sunrise...it was pretty good..I LOVED the crowd they were so crazy!! I'd love to be in a crowd like that!!!! I adore wild crowds...My sister finds it weird how i love watching crowds..i guess it is..but I think its cool how a single person or band can make tons of people go crazy!!! It pretty magical...well...I don't have much to say..bye bye everyone!!

"The biggest rockstar from the 80s I think would have to unquestionably be Bon Jovi" *Eddie Trunk* (don't know who he is..but he's a smart guy!)

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 00:46:28 GMT

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Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
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EsCaPe Is NeVeR tHe SaFeSt PaTh........

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 06:27:58 GMT

So tonight I watched "What's Eating Gilbert Grape" because I finished the book yesterday..and I wanted to watch the movie to see really how different the book is to the movie...and they are so differnt...but the person who wrote the book also wrote the screenplay..so you get the same mood from the book in the movie...so when I finished reading the book I cried my eyes out..I was so emotional when I finished..it was like 3:30 in the morning..and I was the only one awake..and i just started to cry and cry...it was pretty bad..I think it was cause I could relate to Gilbert so much...Like he just wanted to get out of Endora..and thats exactly how I am....I never cried for the movie..i've seen it 3 times..and have never cried..although the first time i almost did..but the book makes you so aware of gilberts emotions..it just made me cry...but anywho..its might be my favourite book..that and the outsiders!!!...ooo...and I really liked to kill a mockingbird...and for whats eating gilbert grape..its one of my favourite movies now...johnny depp is perfect for gilberts character...his looks in it are perfect!!!..and he looks pretty damn good too!!!

Last night I also saw How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days!!! omg...its so good!!!!! I loved it...I never knew it was so funny!!!! and matthew looks so damn good in it!!!!!!..and him and kate hudson have such chemistry!!!...but how can you not when its with matthew!!...so I enjoyed that!!!!

Tomorrow...gonna apply for a job at pizza hut!!!! Its probably the only place highering now....nighty night everyone!!!

*~I’m still waiting for someone special to come and take me away~*BJ

lyrics of pearl jam songs....

Sat, 05 Jul 2003 19:52:51 GMT

~I got all these questions I don't know who the fuck to ask~

~I'll keep taking punches until their will grows tired~

~i know someday you'll have a beautiful life, i know someday you'll be a star, in somebody else sky but why why whyyyyy cant it be why cant it be mine~

~I see the world through a rocking horse of time~

~for every tool they lend us, a loss of independence~

~The dead lay in pools of maroon below~

~why would you, wanna hurt me...oh, so frightened of your pain~

~there's no wrong or right, but I'm sure there's good & bad~

~can you see them out on the porch? but they don't wave~

~ill ride the wave to where it takes me, ill hold the pain release me~

~i have wished for so long, how i wish for you today~

~no matter how cold the winter there's a spring time ahead~

~it doesn't hurt, when I bleed...but my memories they eat me~

~i'm there, let yourself fall, i'm right below you now~

~i changed by not changing at all~

~Memories Like Fingerprints, are slowly raising~

~All the rusted signs we ignore throughout our lives
Choosing the shiny ones instead~

~He who forgets will be destined to remember~

~escape is never the safest path~

~I know I was born and I know that I'll die, . . the in-between is mine. I AM MINE.~

~I don't question our existence,I just question our modern needs~

~First he was strapped then he was stabbed by faceless men well fuckers but he still stands~

~I guess it was the beatings...made me wise~

got my report card this morning..now i'm mad....

Thu, 03 Jul 2003 19:14:46 GMT

english: 80%
Vocal: 73%(grrrrrrrr)
Science: 76%
History: 78%(i'm mad about that)

ok..so the marks that are making me mad are history..and vocal...

I knew vocal was going to be bad...like this year my teacher hated me...for our singing test christina couldn't even talk...like she lost her voice so she could barely sing..yet she got better than me on it...and I told her that and she agreed something weird was up..she said that she'd be mad if she was in my position... I took that dang course next year...I'm going to call guidance and get it changed cause I never wanna be in that class again...I didn't like it that much this year..only the wonderland part was good...so I'm not taking it next year cause its gonna be the exact same way next year....

Now my history mark should be higher..I know it should cause I got 100% on my newspaper and 86% on my essay...I couldn't have bombed the exam so badly that it caused for my mark to be lower...I shall go to school tomorrow and get my course changed and see if Mr. Boissoin is there so I can see what I got on my exam and find out if thats why my mark didn't end up in the 80's like he said it would...

on another note...i was watching mm and saw the video for "do the evolution" by pearl jam...it was #1 for best animated video..I've never seen it before..its actually really interesting..makes a lot of statements in it by the imagery...and right after they played audioslave "show me how to live"...I like that song...its actually really good!...I never knew chris cornell was so hot!!!!! holy crappers..he looks good!!! My sister said she never seen him look so good!!!! anywho..it seems like grunge or alternative music is coming back..thank god!!

quotes from gangs of new york...

Thu, 03 Jul 2003 07:17:24 GMT

~When you kill a king, you don't stab him in the dark. You kill him where the entire court can watch him die.~

~The past is the torch that lights our way. Where our fathers have shown us the path, we shall follow. Our faith is the weapon most feared by our enemies. In the call of those who suffer to join our ranks however far they may have strayed from our commeth home across the sea. Thereby we shall lift our people up against those who would destroy us.~

~The world turns, but we don't feel it move~

~With great numbers must come great strength.~

~I killed the last honorable man 15 years ago...since then...the preist and me, we lived by the same principles. Only faith divided us. He gave me this ya'know. Finest beating I ever took. My face was pulp, my guts was pierced, my ribs was all mashed up. And when he came to finish me, I couldn't look him in the eye. He spared me because he wasnted me to live in shame. This was a great man. So I cut out the eye that looked away, sent it to him wrapped in blue paper. Would'a cut them both out if I could afford him blind. Then I rose up again with a full heart...and buried him in his own blood.~

~Someone steals from me, I cut off his hands. He offends me, I cut out his tongue. He rises against me I cut off his head and stick it on a pike~

so....even when I say I wanna change...I'm just lying to myself..

Thu, 03 Jul 2003 06:36:04 GMT

I've begun a bad pattern...which I shall try to change...I've already gotten in the summer mode of doing nothing...and I desperately wanna break it....today made some eddie vedder wallpaper..thanks toni for all the help...well..I like the 2nd one I made..its pics of his face..and written across "I seem to recognize your face"..a line from one of their songs I love...my sister fell in love with it!!!

There was a Our Lady Peace concert on mm..I watched it..cause raine is so possessed on stage..I LOVE it!!!!!!!! I've decided that if they come..i'm gonna go to their concert!!! After that we watched gangs of new york..my sis got it for me cause I loved it the first time around...it was kinda boring the second time around cause its so long..but there's some good quotes in it!!!!

OOOO...I offered amanda my invite code..but she said she doesn't want a journal..now I know that was just an excuse by reading katrina's journal..it said that amanda has a journal...which I didn't know..well...that was my last hope of keeping in touch with her..some friendships are meant to last I guess...but I do miss her. While I was reading katrina's journal..I made some realizations..that I don't have any real close friends..and I guess thats partly my fault..but since I'm not even allowed to sleep over at people's houses I guess its some other people's faults too...gosh...sometimes I hate my parents...and plus something else I realized this week....the girls in our house do all the work...yet the boys get to go out whenever the hell they like...like go to cottages..camping..yet the girls have to go through this whole asking process just to go to a party..well..just me...pisses the hell out of me...I need to get out of here...like I'm so sad I can't leave for college or university..my mom talks to me..and I don't even feel like talking back to her cause it always sounds like she has a problem with me..like i'm her little disappointment..like elisa and marco are the prince and princess...and adriano and me are the outcast..the ones she likes to bug...one of these days i'm just gonna snap..and it won't be pretty..I've done it before..and it actually felt good...like I can't believe I'm complaining..there's people in the world who don't even have parents..or anything..says some stuff about me..now doesn't it? This turned into a really different post than it was suppose to be...guess my emotions got the best of me..

"Don't choose to be something you are not, because you're going to be a day late." *~JBJ~*

does anyone know....

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 19:56:31 GMT

how to change the 'comments' to say something else...I'm reading how to do it now..but when I saw the codes..I got totally lost....could soemone help me please??...I'd really appreicate it..also does anyone know if I can customize my journal?

I just wanna say.....

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 19:08:13 GMT

sorry to everyone for my last post...i was in a really bad mood last night...I hope I didn't offend anyone...sorry once again.

~*I gAtHeR sPeEd FrOm YoU f*CkInG wItH mE*~